ZTZ99 main battle tank, ZTZ96A main battle tank, ZBD2000 amphibious fighting vehicle, ZBD-97 infantry fighting vehicle, ZBL-08/09 infantry fighting vehicle, ZLC2000 airborne infantry fighting vehicle, ZSL-92 anti-riot infantry fighting vehicle, Type 05 155mm self-propelled howitzer, Type 07 122mm self-propelled howitzer, PLL05 120mm self-propelled mortar-howitzer, PTL02 100mm tank destroyer, PHL03 300mm multiple launch rocket system, HJ-9 anti-tank missile system, Type 95 self-propelled anti-aircraft artillery, HQ-7 surface-to-air missile, HQ-16 surface-to-air missile, YJ-83 anti-ship missile, YJ-62 shore to ship cruise missile, HQ-9 surface-to-air missile, HQ-12 surface-to-air missile, ASN series tactical unmanned aerial drones, DF-15 short range ballistic missile, DF-11 short range ballistic missile, CJ-10 land attack cruise missile, DF-21 medium range ballistic missile, DF-31 intercontinental ballistic missile, KJ-2000 early warning aircraft, KJ-200 early warning aircraft, Xian H-6 bomber and tanker, JH-7A fighter-bomber, J-8F interceptor fighter, Chengdu J-10 multirole fighter, Shenyang J-11 multirole fighter, Changhe Z-8 transport helicopter, Harbin Z-9W attack helicopter, Hongdu JL-8 Jet Trainer, Type 022 stealth missile boat, Type 052C destroyer, Type 054A frigate.

All these super-duper weapons were paraded yesterday in Beijing in the celebrations of the 60th anniversary of the People's Republic of China.

Berlin was too much hassle after Beijing. We did a great show there but I got a nervous breakdown after the inaugural dinner. During the opening I felt totally lost and exhausted and I was kicked out from my own banquette because I accidentally hit my head to a big mirror. Later we went to Paris Bar where Jani oreder two bottles of champagne. I felt like a buffoon among all the millionaire art collectors, über gallerists and divalike world-famous artist. I wanted to can somewhere away but then recalled that I didn't have any cash and that my bank account was empty, too. I was holding a bottle of Moët & Chandon but poor as a church mouse (or maybe a gallery mouse). Everything seemed to be fake and I cried to Amel that I didn't want to be artist anymore.

Now I'm again back home after traveling two months and I feel much better. I hate the art world and I love to be in the playground with my daughter. I want to be artist but I'm fed up with this infinite poverty.

The opening of our show Free World is tonight at Bourouina Gallery and we still have some things to do. The drawings come at noon from the framer's. It's an interesting combination of Freedom drawings - I made my works in Beijing and Jani was drawing in New York.

Yesterday, we went to the opening of Erik van LIeshout at Guido Baudach. It looked impressive but extremely cryptic. I suppose that super collectors and giant curators like that kind of stuff but I'm proud that Jani and me do easy art that anybody can understand, enjoy and detest. Amel's Cuban cleaning lady said that she loves our work. Yesterday, I also got one of the best fan mails ever (all my fans seem to be young girls):

I was in Kiasma and saw your piece Prohibit Antipatriotic Food. You are so fantastic! You are the Any Warhol of this century. Though I haven't seen many of your works, for what I've seen today, I consider you my favorite artist. I went to Kiasma with my cousin and we thought that the drawing Super Cute Somali Pirates was funny - we are somalies. And my favorite piece was Royalist Spaghetti Meatballs in Tomato SAuce. More political art, please!

I'm again in Europe, not yet in my home village but I feel like home here in Berlin (though I can say in German only about three words: Biergarten, Kindergarten and Scheisse). It smells like Europe and it tastes like Europe. Here you can have an espresso at a terrace, stroll down the streets, and the cars stops at zebra crossings. I love Europe and it's amazing to live here. I could never imagine staying permanently in any other culture and continent.

People tell me often that the European identity doesn't exist but I feel entirely European. Wat else could I be - coming from the distant Finland and living in the deep Spain? I don't want to be any cross-cultural inbetweener, I need to belong and the only possible place to belong is Europe. Unfortunately, I haven't found too many people with who I could feel sameness of Euroidentity.

I had a free day. Judas was installing at 798 Space our show that opens on Saturday and Asia Belongs to Us exhibition - inauguration tomorrow - at MA Studio was done yesterday. I bought a panda for my daughter and started to pack my suitcase.

On Sunday, I fly to Berlin and everybody's going to ask me about China. I don't know what to tell them. Maybe I just say that I didn't understand anything and, for that reason, I don't get the world anymore. I came here with an idea of widening my perspective of the globe but it didn't work out as I had planned. China is a state capitalist country ruled by the Communist party and I thought that it must be a total dystopia but I haven't seen here more misery nor control than in many other places. Or maybe I just don't see or understand it. Then I'm going to be asked if I liked China. I think I didn't but I must add that I don't like any other country neither.